why do i not worry?

Finally finallly.....i fixed my internet connection! god..thats such a silly thing to be happy about! but i think with a great weather, u can be happy about almost anything! why couldnt it just last the year round?
I sometimes wonder how people get stressed over work during weekends...I have to struggle thinking of where do i have to start from every Sunday! Am i the only one..or what is it? Even with all this recession and subsequent terminations we r doing...the weekend just pushes away all thoughts of work just like the wind erases any writing on the sand....Ok that got a bit too much...but well thats what the weekend is s'posed to do! So why are people such worrywarts in life?

My worry is why dont i worry?? What a shame to be saying that! but whtever,,, sometimes I want my mind to think more than it does, and worry more than it does....
its not like i dont worry at all...but these small tensions result in a few mood swings...which are soon forgotten...But why not more? I dont wanna be one of those types to not be bothered about whats happening in my life as well as other ppl's! And i so hate it when ppl say ..U look like ur in ur own world..(yeah i got one of those yesterday) Aloofness can take so many forms & we dont even realize....! Ok im writing some crap...But thats what is my tension....again this tension lasts for a while and then my mind is soon relaxed about it!

Weekend bliss

The end of another weekend...and comes back that same awkward feeling. There's a hesitation that is inexplicable, at the same time there is a feeling of restlessness...Damn its the same ol' dreaded feeling of going back to work! Yuck....
Especially when you're one of those who have nothing to look forward to at work...same monotony, and a busy Sunday (for those living in the ME), and the same urge-to-do-aargghh!
Some weekends really feel blissful, some when you maybe on your own, not wanting to do much, but just enjoy the slow pace of the day, not running about getting things done, sitting back peacefully.....
For me it continues till I get off the company vehicle in the morning....for before that the 45 min. long ride to the office is a nice cozy one. Listening to your fave music and dozing off to sleep...those few more winks of sleep I really look forward to. And what is even more satisfying is, when you wake up in between, and see that you still have a long way to go....
But then when the vehicle does stop for us to get down, its a different stop, not like the one when it stops at the signal. Somehow it shakes everybody up from sleep and we know that we've reached....that slow dreaded feeling crawls back in....
Well, work is not what I should be complaining about, considering I'm one of those thanking my stars for still having a job....yeah being at work is also a feeling of bliss at the moment...but i still hate Sundays....except the ones which are public holidays!

...the bigger scam??

well....I haven't written the entire winter.....what a waste of a good writing season! OK whatever, but just when I need the Internet it ditches me....everytime i sit to write, my connection goes whack! Anyways, whats the buzz these days, besides the infamous 'economic crisis'?? and to top it up, we have some 8000 crores gone with the wind, like the guys in one of the biggest online companies, thought of playing the last round of Crystal Maze with a pack of notes and were unsuccessful! Ofcourse, those notes never existed; but heck what a late realization! The funny thing is, why is this on the top of my head these days? Maybe because I see a parallel scenario with this whole Satyam scam. If you think of it, whatever is going on in the world these days, can be looked at as a stretched version of this scam! The reasons behind this worldwide recession are many; too much lending, investment in then-promising markets, positive estimation all along the way, but they all lead to the same thing - artificial income. 'The bubble has burst' is a pedestrian phrase these days. But isn't the bubble symmetrical to the one created by R. Raju? But where were we, when this bubble was being created, by us and by everybody else around us? I mean it sounds like a silly question...but don't we have to come to terms with the fact that a billion of us around the world were being foolish at the same time. People were literally gambling with their money in markets such as real estate, in the hope that its going to double, triple or quadruple. It did for a while, but it had to stop! The money has only been in the air, rather than our hands, and we all have been inflating that air around us, and what have we been left with? This continuous inflating has brought about this inflation, and now it pinches us that it was a world of illusion we were living in.

I know nothing can be done about it, buts its only a thought....this is what i call the Bigger Scam....one that has left millions worldwide jobless, penniless, hopeless and clueless, with money evaporating into thin air or rather, going back to where it belonged! Alright so, just that everybody was drowning themselves legally while the guy in Satyam did it against ethics, corporate governance, fidelity to investors, and so many other factors! Not really a world of difference between the two things.....but then again, when everybody is doing the 'same wrong' thing, its not really a crime...