A lot of times, we relate our lives with the crossroads. That's such a perfect metaphor to define the confusion and dilemmas that we face so many times in life. They define all those times when you have a difficult choice to make or know that your decisions could have repercussions on others or even worsen already difficult situations. And those are the crossroads that I'm standing on.
Making choices has never been easy for me, even if they were the minutest of things. So now that I'm at the intersection of roads that lead to totally different paths, I really don't know which one to take. At times the frustration of so many other things, may make you feel like being impulsive and taking that road that really leads to the destination you want to reach. But when you have the time to think about things in depth, then you realize that your impulsiveness may not be the smartest decision to take. Rather it could be the one that makes you regret later on. So you turn your head towards the next direction, and think that you may consider the road ahead. Considering that it gives you time to sort your current situation and to make a compromise between what you have and what you want, it looks like a smarter move. But suddenly, somehow while you were trying to make a smart choice, other winds have blown and conditions have worsened. You may be thankful for a minute that you were lagging or the smart choice wouldn't really have turned out to be that smart! As time goes, you feel things are alright the way they are, and again its pretty much beyond your control to change things, because of the conditions around you. Gradually, you realize, you're back to square one and sulking at your surroundings again. Back to the dilemma that you were facing because somewhere the frustration has returned and made you realize how unhappy you are. And during all this time you're even aware that the decision you take can have serious repercussions on others as well. So there you are, with a guilty conscience adding to the roads that define what you want, what you have but don't want, and so many ifs and thens. That's the time you hate being standing at the crossroads...they are not as fascinating as the sound of the word itself...
Making choices has never been easy for me, even if they were the minutest of things. So now that I'm at the intersection of roads that lead to totally different paths, I really don't know which one to take. At times the frustration of so many other things, may make you feel like being impulsive and taking that road that really leads to the destination you want to reach. But when you have the time to think about things in depth, then you realize that your impulsiveness may not be the smartest decision to take. Rather it could be the one that makes you regret later on. So you turn your head towards the next direction, and think that you may consider the road ahead. Considering that it gives you time to sort your current situation and to make a compromise between what you have and what you want, it looks like a smarter move. But suddenly, somehow while you were trying to make a smart choice, other winds have blown and conditions have worsened. You may be thankful for a minute that you were lagging or the smart choice wouldn't really have turned out to be that smart! As time goes, you feel things are alright the way they are, and again its pretty much beyond your control to change things, because of the conditions around you. Gradually, you realize, you're back to square one and sulking at your surroundings again. Back to the dilemma that you were facing because somewhere the frustration has returned and made you realize how unhappy you are. And during all this time you're even aware that the decision you take can have serious repercussions on others as well. So there you are, with a guilty conscience adding to the roads that define what you want, what you have but don't want, and so many ifs and thens. That's the time you hate being standing at the crossroads...they are not as fascinating as the sound of the word itself...
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