So am here again to shed some more tears into this blog! Just when I had things pre-planned in my head and thought they were going fine....again came the crossroads of my life. Well, this time its not really the crossroads but more like a T junction. Because this time its not about having so many options to choose from but rather, about going either this way or that. So yeah, its more like a now or never situation. But again there are the 'odds' of the 'now' and the 'never' is too much to put at stake! So what does miss confused mind do??
I would go for the battle....stick to the 'now' but I just hope a time doesn't come when I'm bloggin about how my choice didnt work out. That's my biggest fear right now! And guess what, when you relate that to many minds harping in a typical Indian mentality, you feel like you shouldn't say that something exceptionally nice is going to happen or it would actually not happen! In a more typical situation, the keeper of such beliefs would not discuss a prospective opportunity with his/her fellow friends or associates in the fear that they might silently curse it and end up ruining it for you. I was having this conversation with my friend, and we both thought how differently the Westerners take it. They would be direct and open with their ideas and least speculative of the harm the other person can do by merely listening to your ideas or situation! Anyways the point was, when you're fearful of something and you confess of your fears to too many people, you again begin getting a doubt in your head of whether you should have even spoken about it or rather kept it under the covers. Even if you dont really believe in those idiotic superstitions...Well thats it I was trying to say!
So back to my problem. You know, you reach this stage in life and realize you have maybe not even a few years to enjoy and have the time you always wanted. And that makes you want to rush because there's no time left. How you wish you had made some wise decisions before and how things could have been different! But again, you console yourself saying that whatever happens, is for a good, for a solid reason, whether you ever figure out or not, the reason should be good!
God...I'm on my trip again, drifting from one vague topic to the next...really not making sense. But at times you can't explain things right from the start. Rather you want to vent out your frustration in a way thats not completely hard-hitting but still makes enough sense to you. Anyways its only natural that when you're frustrated, you feel like you're tackling the world's biggest problem! hehe...why did i say that, I don't know!
Now honey, there's enough and more work to do, so well I shall motivate my self to gerruppp and get my ass off the couch and do somefin' about it!
I would go for the battle....stick to the 'now' but I just hope a time doesn't come when I'm bloggin about how my choice didnt work out. That's my biggest fear right now! And guess what, when you relate that to many minds harping in a typical Indian mentality, you feel like you shouldn't say that something exceptionally nice is going to happen or it would actually not happen! In a more typical situation, the keeper of such beliefs would not discuss a prospective opportunity with his/her fellow friends or associates in the fear that they might silently curse it and end up ruining it for you. I was having this conversation with my friend, and we both thought how differently the Westerners take it. They would be direct and open with their ideas and least speculative of the harm the other person can do by merely listening to your ideas or situation! Anyways the point was, when you're fearful of something and you confess of your fears to too many people, you again begin getting a doubt in your head of whether you should have even spoken about it or rather kept it under the covers. Even if you dont really believe in those idiotic superstitions...Well thats it I was trying to say!
So back to my problem. You know, you reach this stage in life and realize you have maybe not even a few years to enjoy and have the time you always wanted. And that makes you want to rush because there's no time left. How you wish you had made some wise decisions before and how things could have been different! But again, you console yourself saying that whatever happens, is for a good, for a solid reason, whether you ever figure out or not, the reason should be good!
God...I'm on my trip again, drifting from one vague topic to the next...really not making sense. But at times you can't explain things right from the start. Rather you want to vent out your frustration in a way thats not completely hard-hitting but still makes enough sense to you. Anyways its only natural that when you're frustrated, you feel like you're tackling the world's biggest problem! hehe...why did i say that, I don't know!
Now honey, there's enough and more work to do, so well I shall motivate my self to gerruppp and get my ass off the couch and do somefin' about it!
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